Life Log July 12th, 2020
What to do with hurt? The tone in which people speak, there actions, there reactions, have been based on what I see as unresolved hurt Myself, i have been dealing with hurt. Hurt that i have done to my self. I reflected a lot today on those i have hurt over the years. Intentional or just wrapped up in what i felt was important has led a good amount to resent me or have nothing to do with me.
We all cant make everyone happy, and for a long time i have done what was best for others. The story is usually interpreted wrong, there's always more than one window to look at life. I pray those i have hurt are forgiving as i have tried to make mends with most. This world is so unapolagetic. Every one almost has come to terms with one another doing wrong to each other. This lifestyle has birthed a hurt people hurting people expecting hurt and no resolve. Be it Karma or Gods doing, i have been humbled and have gotten most of the hurt i felt i have given back.
I have been trying to balance that scale out and do right. People will try to trap you in who you were years ago or yesterday but everyday we get an opportunity to write our story for the better. Every day i am pushing the best I know how to be the better version and see myself as Katonda sees me, not the world, friends, or industry associates. They will count you out, but don't count yourself out. There is a beautiful come back story if we give room for one. There is a new chapter if we choose to write the right 1.
Life log july 4th, 2020 5:55am
Life, death, and back to life. Starting a new has been a challenge, but also very rewarding. The world has changed so much with technology and people have changed so much due to money, fear, and false news. I am persisting forward with my plans in any event. You lose some and you win some. I took enough losses the past few months. Rest in peace Romano and Luke Gaga. I am looking to add more meaning to my music, fashion, and podcast. I am embarking on a new venture, my first show entitled "Sword & Shield". Practical actions and sayings to talk yourself away from bad decisions and a life of regret. I have a show i am taking part in as well tomorrow about racism with a Nigerian host. Ill be focusing on conversion of energy. As life is about how we take what is thrown or handed to us and made it in our favor. The news has done a great job of dividing and making us think twice of our neighbor. The Music has done a good job of degrading our values of yesterday. Woke up in a new world with new philosophies. I gotta take back what was forgotten and put it back in place. The significance is in my actions, not focusing on those who bare witness. As long as i leave my testament and fullfill the will and purpose on my life. Bandit signing out,
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